New Love!

Oh yes, I've found a new love! Well, not really. Just something that I discovered I enjoy doing although I'm not bestowed with an enormous talent in drawing. Haha.

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

So I think I'm over you.

Clearly a progress from saying "I'm not." which I have grown accustomed to for the past few months. I didn't realize it until I went over your profile and felt nothing. Just resentment for the friendship lost. And I kept rehashing the things I liked about you. Now I see that they are less tangible than they seem before. I tried to pinpoint what changed, how it happened. But somehow, someway, I just know. Even if I really don't. Confusing, I know. I even feel ridiculous remembering how I drool over your feet before. I felt sad that things didn't turn out the way I wanted it to be. That I haven't even got the guts to tell you how I really felt. But I didn't regret not doing that. Sometimes, you just have to accept the fact that some things aren't meant to be. Even if the reality of it slaps you in the face really hard. I think the distance helped. Okay, it helped a lot. And I don't know what a mere 'bumping into you again' or a simple message might do to this profound realization of mine. But for now, I really think I am over you. And hell yeah, I am positive. :)

NA. KA. KA. I. NIS.

Alam mo ung feeling na um-oo na sayo tas biglang babawiin? Tuloy na tuloy na tas mauudlot pa? Argh. Di ko alam kung kanino ba ko naiinis eh. Sa nanay ko o sa sarili ko dahil naiinis ako sa nanay ko kahit hindi naman dapat. F*ck.

Why?

Can you stop the heart to love?

Love someone you know you can never have?

Even if it breaks you into pieces

The heart still hopes and wishes

Sometimes love ruins our faith

That happiness comes to those who wait

You’ve waited long enough to know

That the one you want has no love to show

Even if you are hurting

Even if the tears won’t stop falling

Even if the mind says stop loving

The heart won’t let go of the feeling

You want to erase the sadness in your eyes

You ought to do what you believe is wise

But it is hard to fake a smile and lie

Why is love so unfair, why?

Red and a little tan

I don't know what it is with swimming that I don't like. Probably because of the fact that I don't know how to swim? And I just envy those who swim back and forth the waters. And I really can't understand why I don't like it. I know I should. Given that where I came from is an island rich in beaches.

Earlier, I went swimming with my cousin at the clubhouse pool. She likes swimming a lot. And she's been whining about me not going with her for days already. So I agreed. And my skin got darker. And I think I might have sunburn. Ugh.

Bored

A new look, eh? I don't know what to do anymore so I busied myself with this. Sleeping time for me. Enough with the text incident already. Thanks Papa God for today. And err... yesterday. :) Goodnight! *yawns* zzzZZZZ

So I texted you.

But you didn't reply. And I feel so stupid for even doing that in the first place. Oh, and also embarrassed. And then here I am typing this. And again feeling stupider than before. Oh fudge.

Sad Night

Argh. Ang landi mo pala talaga. I can't believe I fell for that. Fudge. Why am I even affected? :|

02.14.12

I will not be accepting anything today! LOLOLOL. Really. Haha. :)))) I'm not even planning to go out, even to school. Such a lazy pig. :) Happy ♥'s Day!

Weird

Suddenly I wanted to dye my hair blue,  get a pixie cut, a tattoo and have my tongue pierced. What's happening to me? :)))))))))

Part Of Me!

Yay! Here's the link to Katy P's first single from her album 'Teenage Dream: The Complete Confection'. ♥

This is the part of me that you're never gonna ever take away from me, no.

http://soundcloud.com/jojoda/kp-pom

R.I.P Whitney H

I don't know what to feel when my Tita told me a while ago that Whitney Houston had just died. I was shocked and I was sad, too. Yeah, I know. Pathetic of me to be affected by the death of a celebrity. But let me just say that she has the most amazing singing voice I've ever heard. I feel that in some ways, she has inspired me a lot, too. Her song, "Greatest Love Of All" was the official first song I've learned way back when I was 7 years old - the time they discovered I have a 'talent' for singing. :) And I remembered singing "Run To You" at my recital from a singing workshop. Whenever I listen to her songs, I become inspired to practice more just so I could sing just like her (Though that seems impossible! :p) And now she's gone. :( Thank you Whitney for having been an inspiration to us aspiring singers and for your awesome contributions to the music industry! You'll always be remembered. ♥

I. WANT. THIS.

I've seen this book this morning at the bookstore. I was like, OMG, her new book has been released?! Finally! But I didn't buy it as it was too expensive. :( And I've made a deal with myself. Haha. I'm only gonna buy this book if I got a high grade in the Chem exam and if I was not stupid enough to put the right answer in the wrong number. (Still paranoid. What's happening to me?) The results should be released ASAP! :p Keeping my fingers crossed 'cause I really, really want this one. Sophie K is like the Katy P of my literary world. :))) If I've been so idiotic and got a low score, I would just wait for the cheaper publication to be released. And it would be like, months from now. :| Will punish myself. LOL.

Because...

I'm trying to get myself out of this paranoia, I drew. Haha. I can't sleep because of the Chem exam. Lesson: Check if the answer is in the right number first! Well, I hope it is. In the right number, I mean. :||| Ugh. Here I go again. Sorry for the low quality. Had to use my phone's cam. I'm too lazy to use the scanner. :))

Mama's (Baby) Girl

Yesterday, Mama paid me a surprise visit! Yay! Well, I was surprised because I didn't know she was here last Tuesday pa as she didn't tell me naman. Although the visit was a brief one (coz she went back to Mindoro earlier this morning) I was overjoyed. It's hard to not be with Mama especially that I've spent almost 16 years of my life with her and we were super close. And then there was the fact that I was really pampered by my mom. Sometimes, she calls me baby pa nga eh. :p I remember when I was about to enter college, I hesitated upon going to Los Banos because I would be away from home. And away from home means away from my mom and lola. And I cannot imagine having to stay in Los Banos when my family is in Mindoro. On the first days of my stay in LB, I remember crying myself to sleep on those nights that I'm missing my family. I'm not comfortable sleeping alone in the bed since I got used to sleeping beside my mom. I envy those who have nearer homes for they get to see their families often. I wish it would be summer already, I wanna go home. :(

I Hate

Chem. Period. I can't freaking understand the lessons. And yet, I'm not in the mood to study even if my most dreaded day is getting nearer and nearer. I just can't find the right inspiration. All I'm seeing are distractions. Lalalala. Anyway, it's the start of the love month tomorrow. Ugh. Obviously not looking forward to it. I feel sad remembering how its 14th day went last year. I don't wanna remember how pathetic I've been way back then. So what's gonna happen this year with my still zero lovelife? Haha! Where art thou kasi? Been waiting for you. :">

I'm So Mean!

Today isn't really a good day. I felt like I've lost my temper again. I feel so bad knowing that I've hurt someone who have been very good to me since day one. F*cking hormones. I don't know if this person's mad at me or what. Felt like I've said a lot of awful things and now I can't do anything to take it back. I know it's bad to say cruel things behind people's backs. Especially if they overhear it. Ugh. God, the feeling makes me sick. Just want that person to know I'm sorry. I really am. I'm such an awful creature for repaying the kindness this person has shown me with that. :|

Fix this, please?

I don't know what's happening with my laptop. Can't figure out why this freaking camera won't work. Apparently, this has been a problem of many users upon reformatting. It says the camera is not installed. I tried downloading a camera driver compatible with this, installed it, but it still won't function. Don't have webcam right now. How can I fix this? Anyone?

Dear Katy Perry,

Congrats! You deserve all of those! Weee. :D

Love,

Your proud fan :)

-Favorite TV Guest Star for How I Met Your Mother

-Favorite Song of the Year-E.T.

-Favorite Music Video-Last Friday Night(T.G.I.F)

-Favorite Tour Headliner

-FAVORITE FEMALE ARTIST!!!

Check out the other People's Choice 2012 awardees at:

http://www.peopleschoice.com/pca/awards/nominees/index.jsp

This I Heart!

Katy P had been in the Philippines last 2009 for a concert but I wasn't able to watch for some reasons. Nah, that's coz I wasn't a fan back then. But now that I am officially a die-hard fanatic, I wanna see her oh-so-awesome performance on January 22 at the MOA concert grounds! Fingers crossed, I'm hoping I'll be able to get a glimpse of her California Dreams tour.

Showcasing her greatest hits, Teenage Dream, California Gurls, E.T., and many more, the tour will engage your senses into a candy-colored world filled with vibrant music!

See? The production really looks so extravagant! The photos make me more excited. That's why I'm hoping to God that I will be able to see this here in Manila. Brought to us by Music Management International. Oh and for those interested, tickets are available at Ticketworld and SM Ticketnet outlets. :) And I've mentioned that because you might want to buy me one! Haha! :)))

I ♥ Katy P!

Photos are from:

https://www.facebook.com/pages/Katy-Perry-California-Dreams-Manila-Tour-2012/252890394759093

http://newmusicnews.org/tag/willow-smith

http://iheartkatyperry.tumblr.com/

http://idolator.com/5965662/katy-perry-california-dreams-tour-nokia-review

Blabber Alert!

Hurrah for my new blog! It's been a while since I had the urge to write. Probably because I was too busy before but now I worry less about school since I only have two subjects for this semester. And yeah, thanks to those days of having no classes, I created a new blog just so I can do something! But I doubt I can update this regularly. :p Sometimes I'd rather stare at the thin air than do something. That's how lazy I am. Or maybe, I am just going crazy. :)) I've come to regret deleting my previous blog. It was on impulse kasi. But not that I can do anything about it. Might as well treasure this new one. It was hours before I came up with a title for this blog, researching words until I end up with this: Blabbermouth. Uhuh, it suits me well. And I remember using this also as the title of a talk show we presented when I was still in LB. It was a group presentation for one of my subjects and I was the host. Haha! And I had a huge schoolgirl crush on the professor. :"> Heart pounding and knees wobbling, I thought I would have a nervous breakdown back then. Anyway, I don't want to refresh the details anymore because it was beyond embarrassing, I think. I also had a hard time creating the  background because I don't know much about photo editing and the likes. Sorry if the layout is not that good. So now I welcome you to a blog filled with nonsense stuffs you would regret reading. =))